Even Here...

Faith when the mountain doesn’t move

I’ve always been a fixer.

Give me a challenge, and I’ll get to work.
I don’t panic, I plan.
I don’t wallow, I move.
I’m a bit of an oddball; I’ve always loved challenges.

Hard seasons have come before, and I’ve worked my way through them.
That’s how I’ve coped: with action and determination.

But this?
This is different.

I’ve been facing something I can’t fix.
No strategy will solve it.
No effort will undo it.
And no problem-solving will make it better.

I’ve tried.
Believe me.

No need to worry
I’m ok, I’m not going anywhere.
Just learning to slow my steps
and deepen my trust.

The worst part for me is the unknown.
I can’t control it.
And honestly… control has always been my thing.

Honesty Warning:
I used to say I trusted God.
And I believed I did.
But if I’m being real, I still had control.

Not in a rebellious way. Just in a quiet, ‘I got this’ kind of way.
I felt like I had things covered.

My work ethic,
My intellect,
My ability to figure things out and make them right.

Maybe that’s where my trust was all along?

But this season is stripping all that away.
And what it’s teaching me, slowly, painfully, mercifully, is this:
I was never meant to carry everything.
I was never the one holding it all together.

Struggle will do that, it’ll shatter your illusion of control.

And in that moment, you’re left with a choice:
Surrender to God… or start questioning His plan.
Only one of those paths leads to peace.

Dependence isn’t defeat.
It’s trust.
It’s saying, “God, even here… I’m Yours.”

And sometimes faith isn’t always moving the mountain.
It’s resting at the base of it,
and knowing God is still good.

No matter what you’re going through, learn to give up control and give it to Him.

I’m still learning myself.

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses,
so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9

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